it looks like we all are around the same age and have similar type problems. I am also hikkikomori, no education, masturbating all day infront of my comp, suffering from ocd, and in a state of constant fear all the time. And i dont want to step outside because looking at how other people are living and the way of life outside make me sick.

but do you know what i think is going on? I think all teenage human beings are 'cursed' or must go through this phase of terrible suffering due to certain chemicals that have to change for teenagers to become adults. The changing of these chemicals and cells causes an imbalance in the body, and so that is why we are all angry or sad about life.

And i bet one day we will wake up and suddenly feel fine again, and realize how retarded we were. This would mark when all the cells and chemicals in our body have finished changing and doing its business, so we regain balance.

whatever we are scared worried angry about is completely meaningless to a person whos chemicals are balanced. Thats why you see adults or older people having that urge to punch depressed teenagers in the face telling them to wake up.

so just wait for the chemicals to finish doing its thing, for now just do what you think you will have fun doing. if you like staying home then stay home until you get kicked out, if you hate the place you live in then do whatever possible to run away. if you like to worry then keep on worrying. This post is too long