I am hikikomori. Both my parents are elderly (55+, I am 17) so even when I was younger we never did anything as a family because they were always tired. My dad has a bad job with low pay and is home maybe two nights a month, my mom can't work and can barely afford to pay bills, credit card debt, can't stop smoking and that adds up etc.

I am in my room all day playing games and watching anime, I need to go back to school before early next year because I don't know if I'll be able to so easily after I'm 18. I failed one year because of other problems and when repeating that year I couldn't stand my classmates. I tried to get a transfer but it was denied because of where I live (technically limbo because of my address [one county] doesn't match where the house actually is [another county], thanks government!) I really want to move to another state and sort-of "start over" but because of money problems that isn't an option.

I stay fit because I eat healthy and do get exercise but that is not enough. I need to return to school and get a job but I cannot figure out where to start. Introversion is hard to shed, that and my shyness/indeciciveness is what I think holds me back. When I look at this it seems like I'm just lazy but I don't feel this way at all.