With the holidays around the corner I thought it'd be time to start a depression thread. Are you or have you been depressed? Tell us a little about it.
Personally, I was depressed for about 6 months. You know, the usual stuff. I just ate, sleept, surfed the internet, stared into walls and cried. I dropped out of school and rarely left the house. I think the longest period I stayed inside was for two and a half months straight with no human contact except my family, whom I talked very little with.
Summer comes and I'm still down. A month goes by with me not having felt the warming rays of the sun on my skin, and from nowhere an old friend from school calls and wants me to come over to do stuff. So I hang out with a couple of friends from school for the rest of the summer, this is probably what saved me.
I start school again and decide to give therapy a shot. The 3 sessions I had went something like this: She ask me something, I answer then we sit there in silence for 2 minutes until she ask me something again. Repeat this for 45 minutes and you get the picture. After the failed therapy sessions I began to feel down again(but not "depression level down" yet). Meanwhile in school, philosophy class has started. Fast forward 2 months and I'm feeling fine again after having read some Sartre.
I was horribly depressed by the end of my last (incredibly long) summer break, but.. starting university, and all the inevitable socialising that comes with it, pretty much dragged me out of it. Now I'm at home for Christmas, though, no idea where another month of this will leave me. Particularly since I just found out my grandad has cancer.
Winter always makes me depressed. /sigh
I wish it would always be summer.
I don't know if I'm depressed. I just got finished watching something with a sad ending and I have this sinking feeling in my chest, and all the things I normally did before now seem to have lost their appeal.
This time of year is always a nasty reminder of everything I've lost, everything I never had, and everything I will never have.
>>3
Maybe you have Seasonal Affective Disorder.
I have recurring depressions. I have been down for the last 2 years. Some periods it´s a little easier and everything´s just dull. Other periods it´s really horrible and I cry myself to sleep every night. I´ve also had almost no sex drive for the last two years.
The depression has become a part of my personality.
I suffer from ocd, for the past 5 month ive been living in constant fear of somethign that doesnt exist yet it is very hard to tell myself that its not true because sometimes it seems real, anyways , this is probably what caused me to be depressed, since if i never had to suffer from this ocd bullshit id be thehappiest person alive. :(
But things are slowly getting better, i will just have to wait and see what is going to happen.
>>8
Never heard of... Sounds like Bret Easton Ellis´ novel Lunar park.
I honestly don´t suffer very much from my depression. I´ve basically given up on life. Not being happy just doesn´t seem to matter that much, anymore, since nothing matters. Instead I find my life´s joy in the small things, like video games, good food...
I think happy people tend to find joy in those things too. Are you sure you're that unusual?
I've been depressed for a good four years now, though currently I'm no where near the extent of what I previous experienced. But I'm so self conscious and introverted sometimes I forget I need to offer some form of verbal contribution to society in order to enjoy it...
And then there's the days where I couldn't give less a damn.