I finished my last paper on the 7th and since then I've been worrying about the results that created a completely reversed sleeping pattern, weird dreams and just plain worrying.I just concluded my last semester of my postgrade program. I couldn't get it out of my head eventhough I've 1 month before the results are out.

As I am typing this, my heart is beating irregularly and hands slightly shaking.

I tried my best not to think about it but I just can't and so this morning after work I went to temple to pray for a fortune stick. It was the 38th Stick and the fortune teller interpreted it this way; "why ask when it will be out soon? you should know how you did in the exams." Overall the 38th Stick is not a good one.

Well, I did my best. Because it was my final of the final, I am very shaken by it. It has been nearly 6 years of studies and I really think it is time for me to get a job and take on the world. I do not want my mum to be sad because of me, for she is old and spend so much on me.

I don't want to let her down. I don't want to let myself down.

Till then, I will try not think about it though I will still be shaking over it.

Seriously, have fun and enjoy the few weeks of freedom. It may be the last that you have in a long time. They are done, and you can't do anything about it. Do something productive instead, like enjoying life and party off your 6 years of hard work. Take it from someone who's been there and done that.

Yes they are done. I shall try my best to stop thinking about it.

Cheers, mate