Especially when you know it's all your fault.
First, a brief explanation. Two years ago, I had inadvertently fallen in love with an androgynous, weeaboo, yet oddly beautiful casual friend who incidentally had a boyfriend. I then made the mistake of admitting said crush. Fortunately, she took it very well, and we became really close friends in spite of said admission.
For the next three months, it was bliss. It was the first time I ever fell in love, as I never failed to tell her. For three months, she and her boyfriend were the only people I hung out with.
The whole peachy arrangement fell apart when I, for lack of a better word, got stalker-y about her. One thing led to another, and, finally having enough about my erratic antics, literally told me to fuck off, and not in a nice way either.
I then went depressed for a while before we kissed and made up over the summer, before I fucked up again over my inability to talk to her, compounded by my fear of being rejected again. Out of sheer spite, I did a fuckton of really stupid terrible shit and threatened to kill myself at several points (FYI, I'm not suicidal anymore), which forced me to seek a psychologist.
Finally, the following summer, just as I thought that we would kiss and make up again, she essentially told me to never talk to her again. Not that I blame her for it, but I still feel incredibly stupid for what I did.
tl;dr How do I recover from falling in love hard with someone and getting rejected, especially when it's all your fault?
If the psychologist didn't help you, what makes you think that we can? Recover by occupying yourself. Get a pet, if you need to. Start smoking. It won't be easy, though.
yeah smoking's really difficult, always makes me cough and stuff. the pet's probably the easier option
You know you made mistakes. You'll find someone else and not fuck up so bad. Just don't worry.
And yeah, occupy yourself with something else. Stay away from the stress that comes with relationships for a while.
can you post some pictures of this oddly beautiful androgynous weeaboo?
that sounds really interesting and slightly hot to me.
I deleted all of her pics after the whole spat, so I wouldn't have to remember her again.
>>8
good lord, just find a way to get some. i know you can figure out how. i have the answers to all of your problems but the cost is a picture of her. so yeah...
http://img258.imageshack.us/img258/6380/internethatemachinekl9.jpg
Hint: it's the chick to the left, not the blond one.
Happy now?
>>10
happy? with that piece of crap? yeah right.
DO BETTER
I you know you can.
Shit, man, that's not really how love works. It was more than just the damn looks. She was a really nice, likeable person, one of those people that can really understand someone. And that's not even a good picture of her. Here's a video of her for your benefit: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dxmmFXAvXK8
(hint: she's the chick in the bunny girl suit fucking up "God Knows")
And yeah, you're probably right that she's overrated, but Jesus Christ, what a mess I was when I fell in love with her. I don't really understand why I did it. But it's messing me up hard, and as hard as I try and as busy as I keep myself, I can't really get her out of my head. It's like, no matter how busy I can keep myself with 4chan, work, and video games, she always comes up in my mind to remind me that I fucked up spectacularly. It doesn't help that I'm going to the same university as her in the fall.
Right now, I just either want to get back with her again, but I know that'll never happen.
just take her to ur house and fuck her up
