Well, I could have been good enough for her, but then I could have become worse. I just don't think I can handle responsibility at the moment; due to stupid mental games I play. I get into massive downers due to messing with my mind a little too much, exploring ideas too far.

I mean, I am not a linkin park; self harming, self obsessed piece of shit. Nobody notices when I am having troubles, because it does not make me feel unhappy, it just makes me devalue my happiness. I am just a little unstable -irresponsible- and foolish. I imagine I will snap out of it, and nobody will even notice the difference.

I can't take the possibility of letting her down. I don't want to go out with somebody I cannot be seriously sure that I will not let down. I need to break it, as it is the only honourable thing to do; as it damns me, but makes sure that she does not take emotional damage as a result of my idiocy.

You can probably see from my posts that I am in no fit state to make somebody happy, last and least of all myself.

So how do I break it?