First, I want to apologize for my not very good English. Second, I want you to deceide what you would do if you were me. You do not have to tell me, but I want you to think about it.
Seven months ago, I wrote a <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JPdrBZkI7Yk">letter</a> to a girl I've known for about three years, because I felt we could fall in love with each other very shortly, and I did not want it to happen.
The problem is that while trying not to love her I actually began to have feelings for that person that are stronger than anything I felt for another girl. I am now trapped into my <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XNWB6b-s7PE">limerance</a>.
I am soon leaving for another country (a dangerous one) and I might never come back. I do not mind dying but do not want to affect her life.
All of this is true, it is no fiction. I can provide a reason for every action I made, but can't resign myself to leave this place without pushing these thoughts outside my head. J'ai voulu m'excuser à cette personne mais je n'ai pas pu lui dire que je l'aimais plus que tout.
Sorry for the link editing.
Those are the links:
Letter = http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JPdrBZkI7Yk
Limerance = http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XNWB6b-s7PE
and the uncorrupted text:
First, I want to apologize for my not very good English. Second, I want you to deceide what you would do if you were me. You do not have to tell me, but I want you to think about it.
Seven months ago, I wrote a letter to a girl I've known for about three years, because I felt we could fall in love with each other very shortly, and I did not want it to happen.
The problem is that while trying not to love her I actually began to have feelings for that person that are stronger than anything I felt for another girl. I am now trapped into my limerance.
I am soon leaving for another country (a dangerous one) and I might never come back. I do not mind dying but do not want to affect her life.
All of this is true, it is no fiction. I can provide a reason for every action I made, but can't resign myself to leave this place without pushing these thoughts outside my head. J'ai voulu m'excuser à cette personne mais je n'ai pas pu lui dire que je l'aimais plus que tout.
Dis lui. XD
Trop tard...
I already told her half of the story, the other half won't come because I could never see her again, just in my dreams.
like >>3 says, tell her your feelings and move on.
Nice writing dude. A bit slow for the fast reader, maybe. The second one is better timed so it reads better.
But whatever, I digress.
Reminds me of a letter I've written a few monthes ago for a friend of mine. But I knew she was never to read it. I still have it hidden somewhere.
I don't know if you made the right choice... but now you've started, you might as well go all the way. Find a way to tell her the second half.
Out of curiosity you are in military right? Where have you been affected?
Of course it was not the right choice to give her the first letter. She could not understand why I wrote it. It is now too early (she is with somebody else) and yet too late (I may not see her again) to give her the other half.
I wanted to give her a little romance, but guess that is not what most of them want. They want pleasure.
Yes, I am in the Canadian military. I am leaving tomorrow for Africa, but it is non-duty. I want to find some change over there, but I might as well find death.
So what happened in the end?
Qu'est-ce qui s'est passé?