Today, the third to last day of school, seemed to be a little different. I've known this Italian girl since Middle School. I had a crush on her ever since. I don't know how else to say that, but I have. However, back then, I hadn't been too "into" the boyfriend/girlfriend thing, since I thought it was a "later-in-life" thing.
Now that it's H.S. and near graduation, I think I've fallen her... particularly, this year. I'm 100% no good at finding out whether or not a girl I like has a boyfriend or not... or whether or not they are lesbians (Hey, they exist.) However, this Italian girl... yeah, she was pretty simple to guess... rather, I didn't have to guess. I accidentally blurted out "you mean your boyfriend gave you that (money)?" It turned out it was someone else (for privacy concerns, I won't say who.) So it turned out she said she didn't have a boyfriend. So it was clear... a bit. She didn't seem to be so concentrated on her phone that much during classes, she hasn't spotted a promise ring on her ring finger, and she seems to always be as free as a... ANYWAY...
So only today did I admit how I felt for her... however, I did it at the wrong time: passing time, where students transit to their next class... for final examinations. I was only lucky to grasp in 45 seconds. In hesitation, I told her that I had been keeping a secret away from her, that I lied at some point but I can't remember why. I told her that I loved her without finishing it off with promises I'd make for her. However, I THINK it worked... she's going on a cruise starting this upcoming Sunday (and I was noted that truthfully.) After, it's the 4th of July (already!? This year flew REALLY fast.) She anticipates that we "hang out more over this summer." I pretty much just gave up a trip to Hong Kong just for her.
Now, I don't know what's next... how do I continue? I'm seeing her later today, if not, tomorrow morning (in school) to give her her belated birthday gift (even though I already wished her a happy birthday via Facebook.) I've already threw $106.45 on a $100 VISA® Gift Card. I'm planning on going to the florist a little later if she's going to expect me at her home... but I can't confirm that. What's next?
This is one of those weird relationships... if any yet... I mean, a Chinese guy... with an Italian girl... I mean, I live in a township dominated by Italians. What other choice do I have? Asian/Chinese girls are going out with white guys (and one with a Black dude... hey, the guy likes her back, so I want to see how it goes,) and there's one Italian girl going out with a Filipino dude. What a world, huh? But a Chinese guy & Italian girl...
... plus, I haven't lied to her... I drink... in Hong Kong where 18, my age, is the legal age limit to drink there.
Giving up a trip to HK for a girl. Man ... retardation at its best.
Um ... so are you a banana?
I agree with >>2, giving up that trip was really stupid.
>I've already threw $106.45 on a $100 VISA® Gift Card
Dude, you're over doing it. It's probably to late to change it, but a gift at a quarter of that costs would have been more appropriate.
>This is one of those weird relationships... if any yet... I mean, a Chinese guy... with an Italian girl... I mean, I live in a township dominated by Italians. What other choice do I have?
Haha, oh wow. Wow. As a white person, I apologize most profusely that we whiteys have tainted the girl you like with our whiteness. I am so sorry she is not a perfect pure Asian girl, as you would so prefer. I am also sorry that you live in a town the is predominately white, and that you have to interact with those damn white people everyday. It must be a tragedy for you.
OP, you're an idiot. If this is your last year of high school, then chances are you're going to split up when you both go off to college or whatever you end up doing. Keep the gift card, go to Hong Kong. I mean, unless you want a summer fling, but seeing as you told her you loved her (which was also stupid) I'm getting the impression that you want more than that.
Go to Hong Kong!
And move forward with your life without this ONE girl. In time, your memories of her will fade into the background. As it should be. Enjoy eating Italien food, reminisce. Be thankfull that your long life has many future romantic opportunities - which will teach you great wisdom, from lover to lover.
Monetary Trinkets (a VISA Card, or a Wedding Ring) are NOT the wisest beginning-path to a Human's Heart. Invest in quality time SHARED with another person. A mature mind needs no money to express true love.
Go to Hong Kong! Enjoy your unwritten path like the Walking Buddha.
>This is one of those weird relationships... if any yet... I mean, a Chinese guy... with an Italian girl... I mean, I live in a township dominated by Italians. What other choice do I have?
That's a weird relationship?
Boy, you have a lot to learn about life.
Giving up a trip was a bad idea sure, but you're really over thinking things aren't you OP? Race shouldn't matter in the first place and second... unless you really know the girl you shouldn't be spending that much money on her. Buy something with the gift card and use the rest for yourself, but clothes might be a bit much also... all in all just chill dude. Relax!
Haha i'm going to spread this word that you posted this here...i know you...your the kid...in woodbridge right?
haha the op is too scared to admit because its real hAHAHAHAA
Alright, well, I haven't posted in a bit because I've been busy. Actually, I didn't have to listen to you all and yet I've moved on. Whatever the case, after a few weeks, I slowly forgot about her. I gave up since she stopped answering my texts... or the fact that she just decided it'd be funny to use a part of my $100 as "the last few dollars I needed for my trip to Italy this summer." (P.S.: She's still there)
Now, I'm having a damn good time in NYC.
End of story. Let this thread die.