Emo or not, I can't deny that life is cruel to me. Ever since I was born i was being treated unfairly and bullied. Whenever people encounter I always get shafted and treated to be the inferior, always getting the end of the stick, its like I'm deserved to be put down. I'm really sick of it. Sometimes I want to kill people, I've been wanting to do this. If I ever come to that and decide to act on this. I probably would kill thousands, I 'm really bitter and angry about the society. its like a bad stigma is attached to me when I meet others. It's bullshit, people automatically disliking me as soon as they meet me. Do people have the same problem?

It's like they look at me like a retard. I'm not trolling or anything. I know it gives me impression that I 'm looking for bad responses from this, and it is really uncommon to self-defeat myself or rather hating myself. Its not that I want to say that.. but from experiences that is how I have concluded they are looking at me. People don't take me seriously nor do they want to talk to me. They think I'm stupid and automatically make them the right to mistreat me or behave towards me in a way offending by belittling me. I want to tell them not to treat me the way they are treating me and be a bit respecting directly in serious tone .. but if I do it I get the cold shoulder and it definitely end me being shafted even further and heing hated by everyone in the group.. thats why I want to kill them all before they do this to me.... I really sick and tired of enduring this. I want to end my life.. or if not become insane,, which already am.. . i can go further by dissociating human morals and conscience and make myself the worst human enemy. I don't derserve this treatment. If I ever think of killing myself, I can't do it,, there is just something preventing me.. also killing others i can't do that ,, i still have my parents....but if they are gone one day, maybe that'll change and i don't have any physical connections. If i were to choose murdering others, i have leave my parent away to the outside world by myself or i have to kill my own parents so that i don't have anymore connections,. that'll make me do whatever i want without responsibility and duties bound with my parents.

What do think and have to say about this?

Am I the only to have this thought?

I'm really bitter the society. Who wouldn't be bitter if they are treated like that in their whole life?

Please come out and say something.