Sir, the only way to go through your problems is solving them. You can firstly change your point of view, to the people and to yourself. Change your clothes, empty your closet or your room to remove unnecessary things, change your hairstyle, change your mental dictionary, change your habits, smile at people!!, smile when talking to the phone, etc. At the same time, you can talk to people about your problems: friends, family, psyquiatrists, etc.
I don't know what else to say, really (._. )
If destroying makes you happy, stop on your tracks and place a mirror. Observe the hole that is forming on your chest. Fill it in with anything negative, it is gonna become wider. Fill it with good things, it will become smaller and then become light, which will enlighten your life and the life of others. But, you have to work on it. You cannot fix your situation if you don't want to, if you are not willing to do anything for it, if you refuse to acknoledge that the only cause of your problems is YOU. Well, people can be another factor, but, DO WE EVEN CARE WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK OF US?????!!!! The hell with them, I say! People might think that you are a creep, a bastard that came to this world with the only purpose of dying in a neverending series of pain, tears and blood. But, their eyeglasses hide the real person, the real being in the human. People don't often take those glasses off when they come upon your way, but, certainly, there is a bunch of light inside everybody that can beat the sun's light radiation. You have to take those eyeglasses off, too, and discover the real you. Humans have a lot of potential: we made it to space! In this planet, what is that thing that you can do to contribute, give, to the people? People only expect the best of others, true, but some may have to tolerate with everybody else's nature. What is that, hidden in your soul, that can create a sculpture, a song, a painting, a poem, a performance, so wonderful that will fill other people's eyes with liquid hope and happinness and complement the vast gaps in their souls??????
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