I don't consider myself Asian. Although I'm half Filipina and half Chinese, I cannot speak anything except English since my parents although BOTH Asian are from two different cultures and therefore communicate to each other in English as well.

When I see Asian things, such as fashion, music, movies, tv shows, it feels so foreign to me. But I do like some things, like I love Chinese history, I love manga, I love Asian tv dramas, movies... I love Gothic Lolita fashion too. But I believe the way I look at things is as if I was white like the usual suspects are.

When people speak to me in Chinese, I always get insulted and unhappy because I think 'Just because I look Asian doesn't mean I speak your language!' - plus I also live in Australia... so it's expected to speak English usually right?

Anyhow, I'm probably very confusing right now. Not sure if my post is making sense. But I did want to get my feelings out there.

I should accept that I am Asian, yes. But I am a Westernized Asian. I was born in Australia, and I will always be Westernized. I can't help it, that's the way I was brought up. I hope other Asian people aren't disappointed in how I turned out.