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There is no "I don't know".
Think about it. What does it make you feel, besides arousal.
Power? Revenge? Relief? etc (usually several different emotions)
Why does it give you that feeling? What do women make you feel, especially young ones? What does rape/abuse signify and make you feel?

For some, sexual abuse is about taking control of a threat, and to impose their power on the threat. The why differs, but is also very important to be aware of. So far, I have yet to find someone who truly loves and likes themselves that have this problem with women.

Since when have you had this problem?