I'm sorry. I basically just want to rant and scream and cry about this. It sounds so emo, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Ugly, ugly, ugly. I feel so hideous. I feel like everyone else is so damn pretty or handsome, and I'm ugly and frumpy and disgusting. I don't think I'll ever feel good about myself until I can finally stop photoshopping all my pictures so my acne isn't visible and I look thinner. God. I hate this. I feel so ugly and ungraceful, so inferior to everyone else. Normally I can find beauty in anyone. I can pick out the pretty bits of someone's face and keep them in mind, and ignore the ugly bits, but with my own face...I can't.

It's getting to the point when I hate looking in the mirror, because I look awful. I get scared of people looking directly at me, as well- I keep covering my face with my hair and looking away. It's awful.

I feel like a fucking ugly freak.