i seem to have lost all hope and cant do any work..... i just cant find any hope no matter what, i keep failing people....
i want to give up but i cant, can anyone help me?

look, you're not going to kill yourself, right? so, get off your ass and do the best job you possibly can.

Strangers on the internet can't help you.
Talk to your doctor.
Talk to your family.
These people can help you.

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I must correct: strangers on the internet can help you by telling you who can really help you. Nothing more.