I just turned 42 and I am still a virgin. I live with my mother and I am currently unemployed. I am fat, my face is oily, and I have pimples on my butt. I borrow money to secretly buy cigarettes, which I smoke behind the garage when my mother takes a shower and goes to bed. I watch porn everyday and therefore masturbate everyday. I have both hemorrhoids and diabetes. My toilet and bathtub are growing mold furiously and I haven't washed myself or my clothes in about a two weeks. I go to 4chan for the jailbait and other stuff. I have dreams of other people eating my body parts while I watch. I smoke dope and go to club parking lots at 3am to look at drunk women but never have had the courage to approach them yet. I bet nasa uses computers. My molar is rotten but I don't have money to pull it out. I watch anime and speak Japanese. What am I suppose to do in this life?