I'm a 22 years old guy that used to love games, manga, books, computer programming and talk with his friends, over the net or face to face.

Recently I have lost almost all my motivations, and now I feel empty, bored and maybe depressed. I don't want to do almost nothing and the only thing I do is listen music in by bedroom, browse the net and program.

The next academical year I will start studying in the university and that was a big motivation for me. But right now I feel that I'm a bit old to start university.

Also I don't have so much friends, and they live a bit far from me, so we see each others one or two times each month, and that make me feel lonely. And the ones that I have near the only thing they do is play games and watch things, I'm a bit tired of that, but don't have alternatives.

If thats not enough my girlfriend broke with me some days ago, after all the plans we did and all the love we shared. All the girls say that I'm a nice guy, but seems that I'm not enought for them.

I have tried to be positive, to smile and be happy, sometimes works, but not always. Because when I remember how alone I am, and how I have been dumped I can't be that strong.

What can I do now? Suicide? I have been thinking in that, but I'm too coward.

I need a solution or I will fall in and endless pit of depression.

Well, now I should continue working, thanks for reading me.