I look at everyone else and they're all boasting about how they started reading Flaubert when they were 5 or how they received prizes from the government for their scientific work when they were 14.

All that while I've wasted all of my life either sleeping or playing video games and thus haven't retained much knowledge of anything.

That wasn't a problem while I was living a dreamlike reclusion life, but after university classes started it's gotten kinda frustrating. I am older than everyone else and also a complete retard comparing to them. When a teacher makes some reference to some occurrence in 19th century England and people start talking about it and I don't know shit I feel like dying.

What can I realistically do to feel better with myself other than trying to recover the lost time? It's kinda hampering my work because I can't clear my mind of it..