I am a well adjusted pleasure seeker, and very happy with my life.
I have happened to come across a few people needing help to get out of their addictions to cutting themselves up. They claim it is a rush.
I have a penchant for trying out new things.
As a result of this, and my fairly experimental nature, I decided to take a razor to my arm, after marking out any arteries and veins so I could avoid cutting any. I also have avoided tendons for the same reasons. I used disinfectant and plasters afterwards.
Now, is anybody here an ex- self harm type or still practicing who can give me any pointers? I have no wish to end up doing myself any permanent damage, and I want to know things to avoid. To be honest, it isn't doing much for me.
InB4 Well meaning concern.
>To be honest, it isn't doing much for me
So don't do it. To actually get something out of self-harm you would surely want to hurt yourself, not just as some kind of experiment facepalm
...yeah, dude. People who want to hurt themselves probably don't avoid the arteries and veins, for one.
You will end up with scars, there's no way to avoid that if you purposely injure yourself. Plus there's a risk of infection which has the potential to cause serious long-term damage (if not an early death.)
As was said, people who self injure do not avoid blood vessels, they want more blood because it makes for a more gruesome photo to post online (I'm not kidding, either.)
I would strongly recommend NOT trying this particular activity, it gives no benefits and only drawbacks.
Down the street not across the road to the hospital
Benefits? Drawbacks? They don't matter very much to me. I want to try new experiences. You know, random acts of charity, going to a football match, going scuba diving, trying drugs, living life.
Self harm is just something to experiment with. That said, I don't like the prospect of infection. Do you think sterilizing a razor would work? I honestly don't care about scars. I'll just tell inquisitive people I fell over a milk bottle when I was a kid or something.
My logic is fairly holed and defunct, but the best logic usually is. Honestly, you can have all the consistency you like once you are dead. If I try things, I usually want an interesting experience without reducing my strength.
I think you are right however, cutting is just...frankly boring. No idea why people go on about it. My plan is to wait for my cuts to heal over, then go for a proper deep cut in a non-harmful area of arm, then reassess. Good plan?
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I cut. My trick is to cut veins. The more blood the better.
Though it's a dirty habit to get into.
I only did it to kill my self and I FAILED
I used to cut, but I only got a rush if I was already in a craze of violent anger. I was usually so out of it that I was not paying attention to what direction or if I might hit something important. I was not trying to kill myself, in fact that was what kept me from killing myself.
It is a rush, but it if you want a rush...this probably isn't the way to go. It freaks people out and pushes them away, even ones that you thought were close to you. If people see the scars, most don't have the decency to keep their mouths shut. When I go to the liquor store to get smokes the cashier has the nerve to ask what happened. It's like, "what the fuck do you think happened?" Then nobody believes you when you say you have stopped, and they call you a liar because apparently that is what all cutters say.
Yeah, I could wear long sleeves but I'm not going to live in shame. The past is the past, and you have got to live with it. Is it worth it? Especially for a curious rush or some sort of thrill? No, it isn't worth it.
I should also say, that it can be addicting and it is very hard to stop once you really start doing it. It has taken me three years and during that time I slipped up quite a bit. I could slip up at anytime. It is a lot like being an alcoholic.
"Oh ho! Look at me, I don't have issues! I'm just so deep and inquisitive!"
People who cut themselves do it for two reasons. To flood out emotional pain with physical pain and/or to get attention. I know because I was one of them.
If you want to try new things, I heard that choking yourself during masturbation can give you a better orgasmic feeling.
What the fuck. Trying new things is learning how to sew or draw or something. Cutting yourself? You're just insane.
Cutting shouldn't be a hobby or something. I regret ever trying it, because now I have a blood fetish. Just don't cut because other people are doing it, and you want to try a new thing. You'd become a "poser" as they used to say back in middle school.
"If you want to try new things, I heard that choking yourself during masturbation can give you a better orgasmic feeling."
Oh lawd, that sounds like fun. Wouldn't you bruise?
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I don't plan on cutting in noticeable places or ever telling anyone. If people found out, this would be seriously embarrassing. Still, you are beginning to put me off making any sizable slice.
Partially I do this stuff to make me a better writer...Extending range of experience etc. Do you think cutting a pectoral muscle would be a better idea? This would result in a less noticeable scar.
If you need to cut to be a better writer, you must have never been a very good writer to begin with and your life must be so boring that you must go out of your way to make it mildly interesting.
if you doubt your powers you give power to your doubts
Hear, hear. You don't have to kill someone to write a good murder mystery.
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I think you do, actually. A really good one, at least.
http://crime.about.com/b/2006/08/12/ex-con-author-found-guilty-of-murder.htm
http://findarticles.com/p/articles/mi_qn4158/is_20070906/ai_n19513833
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/If_I_Did_It
Well, they're not necessarily really good books...
And to be fair there is a good chance that last guy actually is innocent.
>http://crime.about.com/b/2006/08/12/ex-con-author-found-guilty-of-murder.htm
Not really a murder mystery is it? It's an account of the prison system. Arguably only somebody who has been in prison can write a book about being in prison, but fiction writers can always reference these books. This seems to be more biographical/factual than fiction.
2nd link 404 :(
OJ's book - that's quite a good one to pick! The controversy about his innocence would mean some people would say it's more like a biographical account with slight fiction, while those who support the verdict would say a fictional account with slight biographical slant.
A Polish author, travel writer and intellectual whose best- selling novel described a grisly murder has been jailed for 25 years for committing the crime he had so vividly portrayed. The killing of Dariusz Janiszewski in 2000 was notably gruesome. The victim - a successful, popular professional - was humiliated, starved and tortured, before having his hands bound with a rope that was looped around his neck in a noose.
...The police had no leads and after six months the search for a culprit was abandoned...
...But fully five years after the killing, the detective in charge of the investigation... received an anonymous call suggesting he take a look at a novel entitled Amok, written by Krystian Bala and published two years earlier...The similarities with the murder of Dariusz Janiszewski were too strong to be ignored.
In the book, a group of bored intellectuals finds distraction from the monotony of their lives in sex, drugs, alcohol - and murder. Their victim is first tortured, then has her hands and wrists bound with a length of rope that is then passed round her neck. Details of the Janiszewski murder that were never publicised were duplicated in the novel.
Well, I was more thinking along the lines of Tolstoy.
You know, his really great descriptions of russian nobles lives? He was a russian noble. You write about what you are interested in, in the context of what you are familiar with.
If you are familiar with a wide range of experiences, it will improve your writing.