I've been battling with a lot of realities that I have to face recently. Being in my junior year at a 4 year college with no leadership, volunteer, research, etc experience, having sparse job experience, and taking courses to fulfill two degrees after having transferred from a Community College where I basically only took general education courses, I need to move my ass Fast to become competitive for Grad School application.

The problem doesn't so much lie there. I'm sure I could work out time to get various activities, etc, in. The problem lies in that I have OCD, Social Anxiety Disorder, am Terrible about not being organized, and am a Ridiculous procrastinator. This isn't even to mention that I lack social and networking skills.

Plus, I've just gotten into the *chans, and adding this kind of interest to my other current interests is, well, insane. Especially now that I've arrived at 4-ch, where I see a bunch of help topics, and I'm a compulsive helper.

So, what's the solution? I get organized and prioritized. I take the advice I just gave to someone else and start engaging in random conversations. I begin e-mailing my professors to discuss mentorship and research opportunities that will lead to good letters of recommendation, I plot out my time every week and all upcoming events in a calendar, and I begin more intensive study into both of my fields of interest.

I will have no time to sit back and relax, for the most part. That frightens me, as I greatly enjoy being able to just float from one thing tot he next, and I'm aware that I have a very negative interpretation, and a very stressful one (especially considering that my negative interpretation Leads to stress) about not having free time.

So, I also need to change my attitude about being scheduled. This is good to do now, anyway, since I Do plan on attending grad school and continuing individual research into the other subject of my choice while going to grad school.

If only I could already be doing this so that I'd get awesome grants and scholarships (which I also need to apply for), great paid internships, and Awesome research positions.

Ah well. One step at a time. I'll have to get used to thinking and acting that way. I've taken my sweet time working up to allowing myself to enter that process. This process.

Updates to come later. (I believe that it's crucial to track one's success or failure and have others be there to see it so that your accountability is kept in mind.)