A little background. I'm 18 years old, I've been using drugs for about four years off and on (mostly on). Started with marijuana like many people and quickly progressed to whatever I could get my hands on. It was mainly because it made me feel special, like the experiences I had were unique. Not to mention the fact that I was very unhappy with myself as a freshman and sophomore in high school. I found acceptance in the "drug culture" and soon gained what I saw as status by being my high school's main ecstasy dealer. Naturally moving hundreds of pills a week and having my predisposition to chemical bliss I began eating a lot of them, somewhere in the neighborhood of a half-roll every weekend (a roll is 100 pills). Unfortunately some of the pills I was selling were cut heavily with methamphetamine and I didn't realize it (or didn't want to) until I was showing full blown signs of meth withdrawal. I won't go into gory details but I learned who my true friends were and with their help sent myself into a 42 day inpatient program.
(fast forward)
I was released from inpatient and stayed clean for the most part, had a few bad relapses but realized that I just can't take stimulants anymore. Coke makes me mean, ecstasy doesn't get me high and amphetamines make me completely uncomfortable. I'm doing well in school, got accepted to my first choice college and just recently got a job. Here's where it all gets fucked up.
I love opiates, they're my favorite drug, and a drug that I've usually been able to get a handle on. I just recently got my wisdom teeth out and made a stupid bet with a friend. I bet him that I could go through the entire ordeal without feeling any pain. So I got my fat bottle of percocet and supplemented it with a bunch of 80mg oxycontins and a bunch of 30mg morphine tablets bought on the black market. Now it's been two weeks since I got the teeth extracted and I've been high on opiates the entire time. Every day I've been saying that I'll stop but I keep having that junkie luck, somewhere out of the blue comes a temptation to do more at a cheap price or as a favor for someone else. I shot heroin for the first time on sunday and just decided no more. I've become a recluse, sitting at my house out of fear of going into the outside world because I know I'll just find more opiates and be right back where I started. I'm showing mild signs of withdrawal but nothing too heavy and I just don't really want to be in that place.
My question is this, for any previous opiate (or any drug addicts) that have kicked their habit or self-detoxed, do you have any tips? I've been fed the party line about what you're supposed to do but I'm looking for some anonymous tips by someone who's been in a similar situation. I've seen too many people I know turn into shadows of themselves due to opiates. And do you think it's possible to chip responsibly or is that a myth?
Go to healthy places ie. the library, YMCA, Church and other such places. Dont have any serious conversations with other drugies. And good luck...
(I had a problem too but kicked the habit.)
You can't do any drug responsibly. I don't mean that as an insult , merely as a fact. It really sucks, but you have one of those personalities... if you aren't addicted to uppers, you're addicted to opiates, if you aren't addicted to opiates, something will take its place. I suggest stopping entirely, because it has only been a couple weeks. Go to counseling. It sounds lame, but it's a lot cooler than becoming a junkie.
ok maybe you can do a drug like marijuana resposibly, but the thing about opium and such, is it's PHYSICALLY ADDICTIVE
so marijuana, lsd, ayahuasca, etc, go ahead
but shit like heroin, cocaine, meth, there is no way to do that responsibly, since your body actually becomes addicted to that beyond your control
>>3 You don't know what the fuck you're talking about, shut up.
OP, I dunno what to say. I'm into junk myself (heroin, tweak, pills). I've tried to kick it a few times but it's hard. I guess the best thing you could do since you're into opiates right now is to smoke a lot of weed. Opiates are physically addictive, weed isn't. I sorta do that. If I don't have any hydromorphone or heroin I'll just smoke weed and drink beer. It fills the void.
I don't really know, though. I guess it's not best to take advice from somebody in the same boat as you.
Seriously? The library? I can read out of my house. The YMCA? Are you twelve? And as for church, I'm not religious whatsoever so that's no help.
I think I'll just keep going to school and work and do my best not to hang out with everyone I know is into opiates. Unfortunately I got a lot of my friends into them <_< bad move on my part I guess.
I've had long periods of sobriety and I can do drugs in moderation, it just slips sometimes. I think my best bet, because I have no reason to forsake opiates altogether is to stay clean for a couple weeks then limit my intake to once a weekend. I know I can do that, I just let it get out of hand.
Thanks, by merely mentioning hydromorphone I know you know what you're talking about. Maybe I'll start kicking it with my purely stoner friends for a while. I really don't have any friends that don't do any drug, but such is life.
Do some DMT, learn the mysteries of the universe, wake up and forget them, and go shoot up some more.
...Oh wait, that doesn't solve your problem, does it?
It does not even sound like you want to kick the habit.
Are you even trying?
I've been sober since sunday... so yes, I am trying.
do you have a real reason to stay off drugs? because to me it seems as if you don't, and that's what is making it so difficult for you.
>>10 pretty much said it. If you have no reason to be off drugs it's pretty hard not to do them.
give it up man, kill yourself
num nums!!!!!