I have a difficult time dealing with my (depressed) emotions. I tend to dislike them.

I've learned that sometimes even crying has been good for a situation, as it is actually natural, but I still always feel a bit dispicable when I feel I may be near tears.

I have to keep telling myself that other people have emotional extremes as well and that it is normal to react emotionally in a situation.

I don't cry outright, it takes a few days; perhaps after an event or topic has snowballed into something larger, and then I feel as if I shouldn't be crying, that I should be searching for a logical answer and not wasting time.

Then I go about wasting time feeling annoyed with myself, instead of responding to the original issue.
Is this some sort of deranged perfectionism? A mental obstacle?
Does anyone else feel anything similar? Does anyone know why they do this?