btw im >>4 and in case you were wondering: I'm bipolar as well... and schizophrenic... so I'm not pulling this out of the air, I know from personal experience that this will help, but its not going to be easy to change yourself, it takes alot of hard work and patience. Im sure that this wont change your life or anything, but I hope that at least some of what I wrote will inspire you to put forth the effort to change something about your life. you can take all the meds you like but your life will still be hell if you don't go out into the world and try to make yourself a better person