I am getting sicker and sicker day by day of the society.
The obligations, to smile, talk even when you have nothing interesting to say, getting a job, being a man...
Yes, i sound childish.
But i'm not even this : till now i have always succeed more or less to maintain an average image in society.
I am a cool guy, wich should already have a girlfriend (not saying it myself, cause i am uber pessimistic and specially towards me), i have a job, even if shitty, wich can soon lead me to have my appartment, and i have real friends i'd die for, i suppose...
So yes : "stop whining ! some don't even have friends, or a job...etc"
But on the other side, i just feel like something's wrong with me, even if don't know why : I am past 25 and haven't had a girlfriend since 5 years, i am scared to talk to people (i mean really, sometimes sweating and can't talk like i would), and i feel like if i weren't pushed by my bonds i'd stay alone all days, with my PC for only need.
So, what is wrong ?
How can one have the cards and not the desire to use them ?
How can one want to totally vanish from anyone without any reason ?
I think i'm not the only one, seeing the hikkikomori phenomenom and the likes in the other countries.
Yes, that was not useful to anyone.
That had no point.
But i felt like talking about it.
If this thread goes down and down, so be it.
(sorry if some things sounded wrong, english is not my mother tongue)
In b4 emo, etc.
At least you know something you can work on, pessimism.
When you're speaking to others and they perceive you being pessimistic, they will often associate it with themselves. Meaning, they will think you are being negative towards them.
Try being positive in a small way, take it step by step and see how others react.
I'm sorry you're caught up in this indignation at societies rules of self sustenance...
Never mind this...yesterday was one of those days...
I just had to let some weight go and it was here i did it, sorry.
There is no answer, i know i have to do a lot of work instead of whining and wasting time.
I know it, it won't be easy but at least i know it.
That's a good start. Read other threads here, they might show you a thing or two.