Be it real life or the internet, everybody I come across hates me. I hate it, I hate myself. Why? I try so hard to be a nice, regular person.
Also, I'm a drug/alcoholic addict (NOT the reason people hate me), how can I stop? I've tried rehab, detox, hospitals, psychiatry, but nothing helps. I went sober a month before, but since I have chronic depression, schizophrenia, anxiety/social phobia I was high as fuck on meds either way. I can't escape it.
Jeezes, no offence but with your conditions i wouldn't be surprised you never quit. Do you a reason to quit completely? Seems not,since everyone hates you (no gf/partner,...). What about family?
I too suffer from Avpd/social phobia with some pretty fucked up anxiety, and like you i'm an addict to alot of things..everything to escape the hellhole, porn(binging), food (binging), alcohol,...
Find the reason and you will get there..i know i haven't:s
Relationships nor family are going to help. My mother is a drug addict and my father an alcoholic. But I've shunned them from life so they're no cause for alarm. I just don't know what to do. I'm sick of being an outcast. Nothing but drugs seems to make me happy.
Maybe moving to a new area, and trying to start fresh would help a little bit? Start over, make some small changes to begin with... maybe like, try setting a smaller limit on the amount of drugs/alchohol you can consume in a day, etc. Force yourself to take some small action to help with the anxiety/social phobia everyday.
I used to get anxiety/social phobia... just thinking about how i'd have to go do my grocery shopping the next day would be enough to have me feeling uncomfortable for a couple of hours... I don't know what the specifics of your problem is, but positive reinforcement really helped me. After i'd get my shopping done, or whatever else i'd gone out to do, I'd always tell myself what a good job i'd done, and then do something i really enjoyed, eg, eating chocolate, having my favourite drink, etc.
ha ha oh wow. if you're real, and not a troll you have A LOT of shit to deal with. people probably don't hate you, atleast not everyone. The drugs the schizophrenia and the anxiety/social phobia probably makes you think that; all of them are known to cause paranoia. The depression and your general life is what is probably causing the self hate.
how to work it out? i haven't the slightest clue, its too much all at once.
You need to let yourself love/desire something so much that everything else will seem so fucking stupid.
Also, what type of drugs do you consume ? You know, if it's pot people shouldn't be afraid of you for that, hence their hate, but if it's heavy drugs that you are addicted to... Odds are: people are afraid of you. It's how society works.
Thanks.
I mostly do opiates; oxycodone and hydrocodone, drink, chug the Tussin when I run out of everything. Weed of course. I guess calling myself an addict isn't the proper terminology. Casual user? I mean, I don't let it show. You would never know I use drugs unless I told you, and even then. I just use more than most casual users would use.
Perhaps people are afraid of me, but there is no reason. While I have anxiety, schizophrenia I'm not walking around delusional or seeing people (in fact I have hebephrenic schizophrenia, so I don't really hallucinate). Maybe it's just my poor social skills and phobia. It's hard for me to talk to people, and when I do I have trouble forming thoughts and sentences, and with this form of schizophrenia my speech patterns are a bit disorganized, so I sound like a retard.
what do you look like
What the hell kind of question is that?
learn to like yourself and then people will like you. your mood affects others and what they think of you.
tl;dr stop sulking
people are just assholes they knw your a good person and thell just bug you because they think your weak drugs alcohol is not the awnser if you cant find a freind someone will be their for you.
Did he cum in your mouth?
>>7 here, look OP... Those aren't really heavy stuff, it's just normal drugs (in a way) what i mean is: that shouldn't be the problem. I think maybe your personality... Does your anxiety lead you to become arrogant when dealing with others or something ? Are you really good at something that people could be jealous of ? Sometimes it's just those little things that only you don't notice.
I don't hate you :D
So what if people hate you? You don't need them to live. Just do your thing and surpass them. Let them hate you. But when they realize that you're greater than them. They'll definitely shut their mouth.
Ow.. By the way.. Try to love yourself first before being bothered with your "haters".
I think the biggest social mistake people make is to be honest. No one likes someone who says whatever pops into their mind. Be polite instead of honest.
Make eye contact. Get people talking about the subject that interests them most - themself. Watch peoples' body language. Eventually, you'll be able to easily tell if someone is lying, likes you, et cetera.