This might be too late, but I have tried to kill myself twice. the first time was after i was rape and i couldn't live with myself seeing that person everyday. i thought i coudl go trhough with it but a friend stop me. the second time I use alcohol got drunk then tried to kill myself. Mi boyfriend came to see me that morning found me almost coking on my own vomit.

i have lots of friends yet i can't help to feel lonely and depress. I socialized 2-3 time every week with different friends, dinner, chess meet ups, jazz,, cofee, I could go on.
i graduated with honors from a prominent college, people tell me that i am impressive adn i am respected at my job and by peers in the field. the irony is i feel lonely and i can't tell anybody how i feel.
my husband of 8 years knows about my depression he stays with me and reminds me how many people love and care about me.
i guess what i am trying to say is that other people don't necessary make you feel less lonely. i keep on living alie b pretending that i am this bubbly hapy go lucky person very confident about me. I am afraid of telling anyone about my depression.
suicide is not the answer, but as of today i thought about it again.