Right now, I can't sleep. It's like I'm some sort of retarded lab rat who can't exactly learn from his mistakes. I feel like I get friends, and I get a shred of self-confidence.

Then they lie, steal or exploit me in some way. And then I realize that I don't really have any friends at all. Just people trying to take a free ride.

I'm only around when they need something or someone. Otherwise, they can't be bothered. And it's always the ones you trust the most.