It does feel pretty good actually. But I have the hard wired urge sometimes to keep them all at a distance because of being screwed over so much, so trying to get past that has been some work.
Everyone with my last name is dead to my ass (obviously wife and child excluded) so they will never get the chance to fuck me again. But the real worst part about being fucked over is I have never seen it coming. It always comes out of the blue and at a time when I in a positive mood and feeling like things are going pretty well. Sometimes it has been when things are going bad but 99% of the time, it is always when I think things are going great.