Hey everyone.
My life is really not worth living anymore.
I'm 24 and I work a degrading retail job, but I'm not a normal guy: I'm very gentle and sensitive (even though I daydream about my body being wrapped around the rough edges of a tough thuggish man), and all day and every day I feel nothing but stress and mental pain. The smallest things that people shrug off leave deep emotional scars and add another pound of stress onto my shoulders. This is something that nobody understands.
On top of that my life is empty, meaningless, and lonely. I'm so cold and hollow on the outside that I can't even attract guys at gay bars (I've tried), so I can't fuck away the pain.
Is there any alternative to suicide?
improving your self-image?
Do you have anyone to talk to? Sometimes just having someone to confide in takes a lot of the burden away.
It sounds like you shoulder a lot of things that you really don't need to. I would sit down and write down EXACTLY what's bothering you. If it's your job, write down what's wrong with it, if it's your stress, write down why you're stressed. It's easier to deal with things if they're organized and not jumbled around in a mess.
It's not good to fuck away pain or just ignore stress (and suicide is even less of a good option!), you're going to have to find a way to cope with it or else you'll break. Finding that way, however, is something you'll have to find out internally.
Therapy is a good way to discover some routes, but if you don't feel comfortable with that, then just talking to someone would help a lot. Just tell someone everything, even a stranger who is willing to listen. Even I'll do it if you need someone.
I think you need to organize what's wrong and then slowly begin to figure out how to fix those things. As those things happen, I think that you'll slowly learn to cope with the other stresses in life that affect you so badly.
Good luck!!
>>1Is there any alternative to suicide?
Yes, choose Life and suffer more. You never know how it all will end, it's like gambling i guess..and yes sometimes it ends ugly. Your choice.
I'm too suicidal, but i'm not "there" yet. Honestly i'm just waiting till Lady Death just puts me out of my misery, but it seems she doesn't love me either.
My advice to you is to have a talk about it with your friends, sometimes talking about it and letting it up helps, and there may be a chance your friends can help you.
Alternatively if don't have much time to hang around your friends put all your stress aside and do something enjoyable like play video games, watch it or surf the net. No matter what you need time to relax and revitalize yourself, otherwise you won't be able to go forward in life.
If you really don't like your job I think it's time for a career change, try finding something else you may enjoy when you have the chance. Now I'm not telling you to do it straight away as chances are you probably need your current job to survive and I'm not sure about the situation of the job market wherever you're from. It'd have to be a gradual thing if that's the case. You're still young, you have plenty of time to figure out what you want to do in life.
I think the most important thing to remember is to relax, although easier said than done you need to enjoy yourself once in a while, even if it's only for a bit. Nothing will change if you leave it alone, you need to make changes to your situation yourself if you want to be just that little bit better off.
>You never know how it all will end, it's like gambling i guess
I wonder y people always compares life to gambling? If there is no gambling then humans compare it to wat? Video game??? Confused...
Maybe it's because gambling is a good analogy. If you don't get it, I don't know what to tell you.
Maybe you should get involved in a floating poker game or 2, then if you survive, consider how life's like that.
because life is unpredictable much like gambling- there's a limit to how much you can guess and there will be ups and downs
lol gay
Please don't commit suicide. No matter how miserable you feel, and how hopeless the future looks, you shouldn't resort to suicide. There are always things you can do to make life better, even if they are only tiny little things sometimes.
It's important to remember that you never know what the future will bring.
I suggest making a list of the factors which are making you so unhappy. Spend some time thinking what you can do about them... there many be nothing or very little you can do about some of them, but usualy there are a lot of things people can do to become happier, though usualy they are things that take some time.
You mentioned a degrading job, people hurting you, and a lack of sucess at attracting guys. Those are all things you can do stuff about. It can be difficult to get a job you love, but you can do things like apply to a different but similar job which will look better on your resume, or take a course in something in your spare time. You can resort to online or correspondence courses if you really have to- they're not really as good but they still count for a lot. Dealing with things people say to you is usualy related to social confidence and self esteem, or sensitivity about things you feel are wrong in yourself. It's a matter of figuring out whats causing your sensitivity, and working on it. Attracting nice gay men sounds like the hardest thing, or so i gather from my best friend. You could be imagining your unattractiveness due to low self esteem, you might not look very good, or it might be your attitude or persona thats causing your problem. Figure out which it is, and do stuff about it. There are always a lot of things that can be done, like working on better posture, smiling more, doing your hair differently, etc, and every single thing you do makes you that little bit more attractive.
>>14
There are no nice gay men, that's the problem
Drugs, OP.
There is an alternative to suicide, and that is homicide. Those people causing you pain should pay -- do you think those gay guys that reject you will look so smug when they are buried in your yard? I should think not. Here's another on the plus-side, missy: your job will seem less degrading when co-workers start disappearing, and you will be treated with more respect by your boss because you will be more valuable (with no people available to schedule for work). Just don't eat anyone, or one day the prison guards will think you are nutty.
did it feel good to tell us you had a problem? a bit, right?
feels way better letting it all out to a person in real life, and having a serious conversation about it with them.
shrinks aren't completely useless
Is life really like gambling? Or is it gambling which is like life?
man, that's just what I'm asking myself everyday...
Whenever I tell people the truth, they just won't believe me, because it's too freaky. Or they can't hold back and laugh. Not at me, but 'cause it is, indeed, funny. Not fun - for me - but funny.
You know that saying?
Is my life just a ... JOKE??
I can't accept that...!
i want to suck your cock im gay i smoke weed everyday
i suck women/s toes i have a foot fetish
kill yourself already you're a worthless sack of flesh and hormones you pathetic fool faggot fuck
>>24 yeh dude i choppd off my leg cause im a bitch for that shit
fuckn blud going evrywhere turns me on like dick and my mum loves it too
basicaly dude go chop ur nuts off so fags cant blow you no more like the gay you are what a fag
also i hav cancer so be nice to me
everything is an alternative to suicide.
if you're feeling that bad just get a fat wrap of coke and hire a male prostitute. I assure you you'll feel better.
afterwards sort your life out. I advise quiting your job. it doesn't matter if you don't have a new one to go to first. you're not a child and your job isn't school no one is making you go do it.
having no will to live can be liberating, it means you can do what ever you want and you don't have to worry about failure hey you're going to kill yourself anyway right?
on the whole gay thingy. theres nothing wwrong with being a queer but gay people are still people, and who would want to date a depressed suicidal loser? you have to love yourself before anyone else can love you as well. cheer up and make yourself a bit more pleasant to be around and I'm sure you'll find someone. try some gay dating sites or something.