so
im 15 years old
i do drugs, drink, smoke and stay out all night
all of my friends are older than me and in college
at school i get decent grades and evrything
but i cant help but feel ive sort of used everything up already
i mean, ive already lost my virginity and everything is boring now
am i just being stupid?
your life sounds pretty awesome to me.
i actually had a friend who went though somehting similar. he pretty much decided one day "my life is perfect. nothing left to do. i'll kill myself". thankfully he didn't, and his life proceeded with more good times.
theres plenty of more experiences ahead of you. especially when schools finished
When i was 15 i was hanging out with people my own age and we all did the same things you do now.
Its really not that unique to be doing those things at your age.
I think a lot of people start at 13 actually, I did.
Dont worry though, going out drinking never gets old, especially once they start letting your jb ass into clubs, youll love it
Just wade through HS a couple more years. College should be interesting.
Sex is so overrated, though. It's a letdown for most people I've known. XD
Why not challenge yourself then?
Some challenges can be constructive (education), others can be just plain fun. (Chess? Juggling? Rubix cube?). If you have all these resources that are going to waste just fucking use them.
Aquire some new skills, a new language. Speed reading is a lot of fun.
Blind, screaming hedonism is fun from time to time, but gets dull if you indulge often.
Nonsense. You simply have to find your motivation. Find that special spark inside of you that no one else has. It takes a long time to find, but I have faith in your ability to find it.
Right now, you're just experiencing disillusionment over material pleasures. They will pass.
You sound like every teenager on earth, OP.
the question is, why do you do drugs, drink, and smoke at night?
Yeah, lots of drugs are much better during the day. Particularly psychedelics.
Yeah, you're just young and prematurely jaded. Keep going in school, go away to college, and continue to challenge your brain and life will be OK. I was much like you at your age, and I'm doing very well now, many years later.
My only advice is to quit smoking now, before you get addicted, and never do it again. Drinking and taking drugs can be really fun, but there's really nothing worthwhile about cigarettes. They're only an addictive, bad-smelling, trashy-looking waste of money after a while. I speak from experience--I was hooked by the time I was not much older than you, and as soon as I was addicted, I did nothing but regret ever staring. It took me almost ten years to finally stop for good.
I will say, however, that college students who spend a lot of time hanging out with a 15 year old are to be viewed with at least a little suspicion. No offense to you or your older friends, but it's not exactly typical.
Here's the deal hon, there's alot more to life than what you just listed so keep moving forward in life. just have fun with it as long as it means you're not hurting yourself or anyone else okay? try to make decisions that will benefit you for the good.