Did you see the movie "unbreakable" with Bruce Willis? I ask because we are at opposite ends of the spectrum, much like Bruce and Samuel Jackson in that movie. I am also 21, but since I was 14 I've been in relationships and have been very dependent on them. I've been single maybe 4-5 months out of the last 7 years, and still live at my parents house along with a 23yr/old brother and 16yr/old sister. Reading your post about who you are makes me realize who I am: I am a weak loser. You learned to rely on yourself, and deep down I know that I am still not strong enough to rely on myself. You are so lucky not to need to depend on other people, it gives you a certain dignity that I have never known.