I'm scared of other people and communicating with them. I'm scared of these voices. I'm scared of not know who I really am. I'm scared of going outside. I'm scared of the attacks I have. I'm scared of my imagination. I'm scared of getting help and leaving this place.
There's more I could say, but I have great difficult putting thoughts into words and this is all I could muster out.
I think the best thing you can do is to get help. If you are under 18 talk to your parents and tell them what is going on in your mind. If you are an adult and independent find a friend or a therapist, or check yourself into a psyche ward. I'm sorry to tell you but you are mentally disturbed. One distinction to make is you are not a harm to others so they are not going to lock you up and throw away the key. It's probably very scary to go through what you are experiencing and if you admit the situation you wonder what is going to happen to you. However, it is best to determine what is the source of your disturbance is and work with others to get it treated. It sounds like whatever you are going through will require help from others to handle.
I just can't nor would I want help; I just want to be alone.
I'm 20, and I have gone away to college, but I had a lot of social troubles and other problem (I guess it's the best way to put it) so I transferred and had the same problems. I'm now living back at home, scared to even leave my room.
Ummmmm, you're a coward. Do you want to get past you paranoia, excessive fear? Well, You are just going to have to suck it up and get help. Go to an outside source and determine the root of your issues. Look up somewhere you can go for help, if not your parents. Until you face the fact that you need help your going to be shivering in a corner batting away ghosts.
Why do I even need to get help?
If I could remain alone, I'd be great.
Everyone's pretty much forcing me to get help.
Whenever I was given help in the past, I would just lie to the therapist and he'll say that nothing's wrong with me.
>>7 You don't want help yet you come on this site telling everyone your troubles. Get off and go see a therapist they're only going to help you out if you put in the effort. They arn't mindreaders you know so if you're expecting good help after you lie to them then your really just stupid.
Do you think that "just being left alone" will solve the problem? I've been a basket case since I was little and I know all about the mind being my worst enemy. Clearly you wish to stop being scared, but in order to do that you have to earn it. Your mind is irrationally reacting to something, and in order to terminate the reaction or reactions you have to determine exactly what is triggering the responses you get. It sounds like the only way you'll be able to do that is get help to really penpoint the problem. It's not simply talking to someone else, it's also about looking deep into yourself and seeing yourself for what you are.
To overcome your fears you have to face them. Stop being a pussy, and face your psychosis.
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I just can't see myself being within society; I never saw myself in the future nor have anything I want out of here.
Fuck
OP
I used to be in the same situation as you.
I had troubles in life, social, love, etc.
Then I wanted to be alone.
Others said I need psych help but I thought I am completely sane.
I told them to leave me alone, and they finally did.
I didn't leave my home for a decade.
I could think a lot.
Then I didn't want to think any more, I wanted to feel other people's skin, to touch them, kiss a girl finally...
I just realized that I got very introspective, overanalyzing everything I went through
To see where I made mistakes
But it was all no big deal.
Now I completely changed.
I found out what is important in life. It's different for everyone anyway so I will keep it a secret.
But I just got up one day and went out.
And now I am normal and I sometimes stand there outside looking at our house at my room, and I think nearly 10 years and then tears run down my face.
I really needed help.
But whatever, I know this wont change your mind.
The important thing is to get complete solitude so you realize that you NEED contact with humans sooner.
As long as they are trying to tell you you need help, it's a negative experience.
But there is also good kind of contact.
You will realise sooner or later, unless you kill yourself before that.
I was a pussy to do that so here I am.
I seriously suggest trying to run away so you can find more complete solutide totally alone in the middle of nowhere.
That will also force you to do various things or else you'd starve to death.
Anyway
Good luck. I don't know what is the statistical probability of this but I survived and I am healthy mentally and physically without getting any help so don't give up.
Also, don't listen to bingo.
He or she sometimes gives good advice, but not here.
It's just arrogance and you need none of that.
In fact words wont help one bit.
I suggest damaging your computer so it's inoperable too
Cause.. you need to shut out everything to be able to find yourself again and rebuild your view of the world..
Oye, someone called me arrogant! That's a new one! I think I'll tell that to my friends because it would give everyone a good laugh. But seriously, the OP is telling everyone he's scared and when I see it on a forum like this I'm assuming he wants this problem fixed so I'm giving him advice on how to do that. If he has a set solution aka have everyone leave him alone he shouldn't and wouldn't post his problem here.
If he just wants everyone to leave him alone, then fine. Maybe in five or ten years he'll start to poke his head out and actually start facing his problem. But if he actually wants to overcome his problem, which I assumed to be the case he would have to work on it.
I am a recovering prefectionist that had social anxiety for several years and I did spend a few years with minimal contact with other, just contact at work. But I knew I wasn't ready to change at the time, and working at it, with help wasn't right for me.
I do not speak from arrogance, I speak from the viewpoint that the guy writing this post has gone through the works and is ready to take on his fears, and he wants advice on how to do that. I've been there, in isolation for years, and then I meticulously attacked my fears and slowly killed them away so that I could acheive a normal life. If you want to solve your fear, take the help that is offered and face it, and if you don't then just lock yourself up in your room. You can do whatever you want. If you don't want help don't come here for it, or you are just going to confuse people.
OP I'll let you into the big secret
everyone is scared. we're scared of failing, being embarassed, hurt, killed, losing, other people, bugs, disease. we're scared of everything.
you don't need pills, or a head shrinker you just need courage.
imagine the worst that could happen and ask yourself is it worse than how you are living now? i doubt it.