Up until a few month ago, I was going to college and living on campus. I did nothing (only reason I left my dorm was go to class and buy food), and I felt very uneasy whenever I went out. I think the fear got to me and I tried to kill myself via CO poisoning and sleeping pills (although for numerous reasons). Even though no one knew about, I went back home and became scared to leave my room (essentially the same way as before).
Thing is, I kind of want to live on my own; I keep getting yelled at to act normal and go see a therapist and I feel I'd be much more comfortable being by myself. Problem is, I don't think I'd really be able to support myself and would probably end up cracking again. It'd be great if I could live in a small place, but I'd be frightful of other people. Is their a way I could sustain a living wage (it really does not need to be much) without having to be around others, since I doubt I could go back to school (and really have no reason to)?
Also, I'm "afraid" and unwilling to seek help for reasons I'm unsure as to why; I know that I essentially should, but I really don't see the point in such.
I think you can get a job as a data entry clerk something or other. Well, that's what I'm going to try and do. You could do stay at home tech support. Though tiring and obnoxious, it would give you relative freedom throughout your working day.
My typing skills aren't that great (I have stubby fingers) and I really would like to prevent using a phone for support basis (I have difficultly even speaking on a phone and I have a speech impediment that makes it hard for people to clearly understand me).
You can do it for a few years or maybe a decade but you will get ronery if you aren't around anyone.
People who yell at you suck, but you know someone who loves you is nice to be around. So find that person and then move out of the stressful city and raise cows or something. Beef price is going up, it's a decent income actually!
>>1
It's possible. I'm considering trying to become a medical transcriptionist so that I can work for home. The pay is decent enough to be able to live on your own perfectly fine. Also you can go to school for it online. I still haven't decided yet and I have more research to do, but perhaps you might want to look into this?
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I probably won't be able to do that; I have very poor communication and listening skills and have stubby fingers, so I'm a poor typer.
>>7
Oh, I'm sorry to hear that. I'm sure there's something else that you could do. There are tons of jobs out there.
The job market for unskilled labor is insanely competitive. Thousands of people apply for every little job that opens up anywhere. And before you can talk to a person, you have to get past the personality test. Those are often reviewed by computers and if you don't pass, your application/resume/cover letter never gets seen by human eyes. Each company and every interviewer in that company has their own idea of what the correct answer for any question is, so what is correct over at Target will not be the correct answer at K-Mart.
When it comes to stay-at-home work, hundreds of people apply for every legitimate position, the ones that require some skill or experience at something. Tens of thousands more apply for the scam positions.
You have to bring something to the table that someone is going to want to pay you for.
You really, really need to get a degree. It doesn't matter in what, just that you get one so that employers can see that you have discipline, can show up on time, can finish what you start and so on. Even if you get past the personality tests, if you don't have a degree, you're never going to get seen.
Therapists are garbage. All of them. No one should choose that line of work; it should be a position into which successful people are forced to work for a period of their lives, much like the military draft is for poor people. If you think you have some kind of chemical imbalance, then you need medication, not expensive chat sessions with some douche. See a psychiatrist, never a psychologist. Don't see anyone that can't write you a prescription on the spot. You won't see them long, either, because they're expensive, but they'll get the job done.
That's the first step, if you can afford it or talk someone into affording it for you. Failing that, in terms of work, try something that has a graveyard shift. You'll find that the work involves little social interaction, your co-workers (if any) are just as messed up as you are, there is no managerial oversight, and the pay is usually slightly better than awful. However, you will be living independently, which is about as normal as some people get.
If you whine and say something like you can't stay awake at night in addition to having stubby fingers or whatever, just go see the psychiatrist.
Graveyard shifts sounds pretty decent, but then I usually have safety concerns and such.
Also, I don't really have much hope in medications and think that they really don't do anything.
>but then I usually have safety concerns and such.
Graveyards are quite the safe place. If there's something I've learned from life is that dead people are actually 99% safer than live people. And that percent of not-safety is the improbable issue where you're sniffing their decomposing gasses and might get sick.
People don't want to get caught in the cemetary at night. So at worst if people come to make funny stuff you wave your baton (or your shovel for dramatic emphasis and for kicks) in the air and yell at them and they'll be gone in a snap. Oh and the worst you can encounter would be a band of teenage wannabe satanists, or a dirty minded couple that wants to do it on a grave.