I wish to be a girl... (47)

18 Name: Anonymous : 2009-01-02 08:43 ID:ufepi6h8

I am the OP of this thread.

I am an extremely introverted and weak person at heart so I neglected to act on my feelings at the time of originally posting this thread.

After I originally posted this thread I took it upon myself to force out all thoughts of it and that it wasn't worth the risk, but from time to time I wonder if I made the right decision.

I wonder - would she hate me? Would she understand me? Would she continue to be there for me on a daily basis like she has been? Would I be able to completely ignore these feelings and break them apart from who I am? Why am I like this? Was I born this way or did I become this way through external influences?

I hate it when she expects me to be aggressive, to take the initiative, to be the deciding one, to lead.

I hardly expect a response to this - why would anyone? The mere idea of telling her about me makes me terrified of the potential outcome. I'm weak and unmotivated. Despite all of this it hurts.

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