Your last post was very informative, but it gives me the impression that you suffer more from Culture Dysphoria than Gender Dysphoria. You seem to have difficulties in living in a macho agrarian society and you would probably fit better in a more liberal, educated, and less gender-polarized environment. I mean, the fact that you don't identify with the local male role model (macho god-fearing cowboy) does not mean that you are necessarily uncomfortable with all forms of male-only identities.

I myself am pretty comfortable with my male gender, and have no problem enjoying a romantic comedy (also gender bender fictions are a must for me). On the other hand I know plenty of females who are extremely competitive, enjoy hard rock, and do not feel the least at odds with their female gender. In less gender polarized societies, people have no difficulties expressing emotional aspects which in more conservative societies are rigidly - and in my view arbitrarily - gender segregated.

So... would it be correct to say that you have more difficulties identifying with the local macho god-fearing cowboy male identity rather than with male identity in general? For instance, I can believe that you don't identify with John Wayne, but how about Oscar Wilde? Leonardo da Vinci? Shakespeare? Arthur Rimbaud? Tolstoy? St-Exupéry? Plenty of people (at least to my knowledge) comfortable with their male gender identity, but still showing extreme sensitivity to feelings, romanticism, emotions, whatever you seem to assign to the female gender...