I've found it quite awkward recently... Have you ever had a problem like I have where you feel incredibly awkward around some females that you know after masturbating while thinking about them?
Am I the only one who feels guilty by pleasuring myself to women I know and interact with regularly? Should I be worried that this could lead to rape?
I do it, but I don't feel terribly guilty about it... after all its not THEM you're masturbating to, per se, its your image of them in your head. Well, I'll admit it can make a conversation occasionally uncomfortable. Just remember, it isn't real. Hell, I bet the "version" of them you fap to is idealized a little bit anyway. There was a high school teacher I fapped to a lot while I was in college... even though at the time she was turning into a nasty mom (got pregnant, traded in the makeup and stockings for a wedding ring and sweatpants). Oh well.
I wouldn't feel GUILTY about it though. It's not like you're going to actually rape anyone. It's a consequence of the one overriding rule that keeps me sane in this world:
What goes on inside the confines of your imagination never escapes unless you choose to manifest it. If the skeleton's already in the closet, leave it there. Everyone thinks evil thoughts sometimes, at least that's what I keep telling myself. Either that, or I'm sick and crazy. I do a good job of hiding it though, everyone just thinks I'm a polite, timid dork instead of the hate-filled sex-crazed vice-addicted madman I actually am.
True, every night I rush home to watch porn, drink booze and worry about whether or not I'm going to go on a shooting spree this year... but keeping it all under your hat isn't that hard... that's life.
Actually, I don't feel awkward at all around girls I've fapped to. The reminder that I constantly fap to them never crosses my mind. I guess it's important to realize that they don't know what you've done and that fapping to girls you know is hardly uncommon. And unless you're already inclined to be a rapist, you shouldn't worry about that fear. If you find that to be a legitimate concern which you can consciously identify, the next step would be to seek professional help. By the sounds of it, though, you should be okay.
I've only done that twice. One to one of my middle school classmate who develops early, and another to my basket ball high school senior. I felt guilty only when I finish fapped to my senior, because at that time she was drunk and I got a chance to rub her breasts. I told her about it (without the fap part) and she said its cool :D
I can't even start to understand why should one feel guilty,... There's nothing negative in sexual fantasies
I have done it, i'm guilty too. Well i think it's very healthy, as the all anoms says you just watch out this doesn't transform in seek for rape the persons you fap to.
But in general it's normal, i don't feel guilty if i fapped thinking in a close girlfriend or boyfriend, or that guy i see everyday crossing the street, it's perfectly normal, it's not real abuse or anything bad, since you don't harm anybody.
I have fantasized about countless dudes and dudettes that I used to see everyday. Whenever I saw them I would think, "Hey, I fucked you, haha". Maybe that isn't healthy.