>I am straight...straight that Im one of those guys that could pull of wearing pink and still look solid and hard (manly) and I dont want to stain this feeling, and imagine if I was caught going in there.

If you think being gay means wearing pink, then you definitely need to meet real life gays,... News flash: they are mostly normal, except of course for their sexual preference. So of course most gays are just plain normal. As for being afraid of being caught, get a bit more self confident. And if you are really afraid, then take precautions (go to the next town's association).

>i owe too much to my family to let them down this way,

There is nothing or no one on Earth to whom you owe the way you live your life or the people you go out with. Being gay won't break your family, families are not that fragile. You really need to update your views, your world view seems to come straight from the middle ages, as far as homosexuality is concerned.