That was all in the past to make you who you are today. Obviously your morals are very sound and you have a really good head on your shoulders. It's all a matter of getting out of your comfort zone and all that nonsense. You don't need to flirt. I mean, hell, I was in the same boat as you by my third or so relationship. Compared to you, my relationships are numerous and short rather than nonexistent. Let's switch. You could try out the experience. ;]

You believe in a lot of things or so I see. What I think you should believe in now that you were meant to be with someone just like everyone else is. You and I are both in the threshold of adulthood and want nothing more than to have decent relationships. I think right now matters more upon living the life and waiting. She'll come, I promise.

Just don't put yourself down for who you are, BBC or not. Who you'll be with will look beyond that and see YOU. Hell, if not I'll just hunt you down for myself. You have a TON going for you. All those other gals are blind. They don't know who you are or what you have to offer. All that you said for the first post are things that most girls SHOULD look out for.

What if girls are actually wanting to be with you, but don't have the courage to face you? What if there is a girl who really wants to be with you but is intimidated by all of your achievements?

I've gotten "You're too smart for me" before. Or "It's really awkward because you're so smart." It could be simply an intimidation thing. But that doesn't mean change yourself! If I didn't have to, neither will you.

So, tough. I say stick with who you are and waiting. Not really helpful and it will be excruciatingly hard, but you'll pull through in the end. She'll come around for you. 'Cause this story has to end well and I don't want this gihugic post to go to waste.

I wish you well, my friend.