This will be my last post, I understand what I am now. You made me realise something inside me now, thank you. I needed that unbiased opinion and clear evaulation of my feeling, that was a good wake up call.

and FUCK, I realised I become a bitchy fucked up Emo inside now that I realise what has happened to me in the inside, this part of me needs to go and be cut-off, so this can drain away.

> Wouldn't you think it a tad bit selfish to want a comforter? You don't need a relationship, but someone to take care of you. That's exactly how any girl would see it, I'd think.

Your completely right, Im asking too much for help and understanding from a girl. I need to do this on my own like how I show myself in reality and how I physically do stuff, and get rid of my deeper personality and thoughts. I'll be too complicated to be with, when I have too much in my mind. and so I will have to tone-down my mentallity/ personality from now.
The answer was staring at me in the face, I should be following The way how I Act outside, not My feelings, My feelings were getting in the way of my life.

Cheers for your support and help, I apprecaite it. I will come back to this site again to update myself in Feb, dont think I'll need to be here any longer. Looks like its goodbye for now, Ty for everything you done. Thank you for pointing me in the right direction.