I am ultra-elitist. Everyone I interact with has some tiny flaw I don't like, and then I end up hating them for it. I've spent 95% of the last two years of my life in my room, because I can't stand going outside to see more things I personally don't like.

There was just one exception, and it was a friend of mine who lives about two blocks away. We've been friends for five years now. I hung out with her and stuff every once in a while, and we talked on the phone too. Just a few hours ago she told me she got pregnant. Maybe it shouldn't be a big deal for me, but it is. I never saw her as the type to have sex with people and shit(she and I are both 17), and she went and got pregnant to one of her friends. I asked her if she was drinking or something, and she said she was only a little drunk and she did it because she wanted to. So, just casual sex. When she talked to me about it, she was surprised I wasn't happy about it. I could have killed something. Now the only person in the world I thought I both knew and respected was just like everyone else.

I feel like I've lost everything that matters to me. What do I do?