Alright, so get this: I enjoy my time alone. A lot of my friends have moved away from my suburban town and I'm mostly forced to spend my days alone. However, once or twice a week I drink copious amounts of alcohol with a group of semi-like-minded individuals. I tend to get too confident and admit more than I'd like to; diving deeper into conversations than I'd normally want to. When I awake I tend to kick myself and become verbally abusive... I often tell myself to "shut up", or "shut the fuck up, Anon" aloud. I'll do this anywhere from 15-30 times in a single hungover day.
Although this may appear psychotic, I assure you I don't have any other type of conversations with myself; I think it may be some type of tick to help me not dwell on the past?
Anyway, recently I've noticed that if I drink with individuals that I have a lot less in common with, the next day I don't hate myself at all...
Options:
1) quit drinking so much
2) quit drinking altogether
3) quit drinking around people I "care" about
4) just drink alone
At the moment, I think I'll just continue drinking alone. If I feel the need to drink heavily or "party", then I'll hang out with a bunch of people I don't know or care about. If I feel the need for human contact with like-minded individuals, I will simply force myself to quit drinking after a couple drinks in an attempt to end my cycle of self-deprecation.
Has anyone ever had a similar issue? Even if you haven't, I'd still appreciate your input on how I should control my habits.
OP here: I should have also mentioned that the group of like-minded individuals that I normally drink with don't ever seem to think any differently of me. No matter how much I think I've made a fool of myself or said more than I should have, they have always treated me the same.
Just thought that was an important fact that I left out.
The root of the problem is that you get drunk and, quite naturally, suffer from drunkenness. You solve this problem by not drinking.
im trying to quit drinking as well. I've tried to never drink again and again..but i still drink again in either few weeks, months..:/ its a dead circle, it happens always again and again!
throw all your alchohol away when you don't have the craving. Then not buying any more should be simple.