Sorry for my poor English. I hope you Guyz will understand this message... Somehow...

I have a problem. I never asked anybody for help (even via Internet) so I feel awkward but it affects my daily life so much that I decided to write here. I hate myself. And not about some small matter but almost everything - my look, personality, the way I thing, speak, behave. Moreover, the stuff I hate about myself is gradually increasing. This is driving me crazy. I know it is pathetic and this is making me hate myself even more! I don't have self Confidence and every time I want to do something I lost motivation after almost no time because all I can do is think that I am too stupid, too ugly, too f***ed up... Sometimes, when people talk with me I think something like "Whoa. He/She is talking to me!? Doesn't he/she feel disgusted?" and try to cut off conversation as soon as I can so he/she won't notice how "bad-at-everything" I am. I try to avoid people (for the same reason as above) but it is rather impossible because I am still attending school (I'm 17) and guyz from my class are really sociable and easy going... How I accept myself? Help.

I really tried many times to write this but I... hate my self for bi***ing like that...

tl;dr: Some pitiful n00bzor whining about how bad he is with awful grammar.