I met this one girl earlier this year, soon after we started to hang out often, then just spend almost every day together. The past few months have been amazing, I don't know what exactly was, if it was only her or all the drugs we did. But we shared so many experiences that I feel some kind of connection beyond just friends but they are not entirely romantic. Surely, I like her. A lot. I like to think I love her too. I wish she loved me back as well. She's moving and her parents hate me. The drive is not that far. But the feeling is just tearing at me. There have been many things going on at home and I never felt such closeness and trust with anyone before. Now I don't know what will keep me sane and occupied. I miss her. Every fucking second. My mother just left us last night, took a plane somewhere far away. I didn't even cry. But when I found out I won't see her anymore my heart sank and died. I don't want to end up doing something stupid, but sometimes I can't stand these feelings. Even when I was with her I tried to hold these bouts of anger and depression, which she relieved and I could open up to her about pretty much anything. Now I am alone. I don't know if I'll be going to school next semester. I can't stand these feelings. I want to stay from drugs, I have to. I don't know. I just feel empty.
you can do it OP! talk to the girl about these feelings sweety!
I think it's the drugs effect.
well, ask her out, seems like a basic first step... If you want her so badly, that's what you should do.
Tell her your feeling ASAP. If not, you will only hurt yourself even further.
she's after your body fluids. avoid her.
You have lost your sense of independence and have made this girl and the drugs part of your identity. You need to learn how to rely on yourself before you can reestablish any bonds with this girl. If you don't and announce your feelings to her she will either reject you because you are pathetic or will bond with you in an equally pathetic system of co dependence. Fix yourself and become independent before you move on in your next stage in life.