What the subject said, but please read before posting.
I'm an actor, and my current production calls for me to handle a pistol loaded with blanks. Thing is, the last time I handled a firearm, the barrel was in my mouth and my thumb was on the trigger.
I don't think I'll have any problems, but we haven't rehearsed with the pistol yet, and I just don't know how I'll react. My inclination is to keep quiet about this, and hope that nothing goes awry. The director has enough on her hands; I don't want to further burden her with my past baggage.
Am I obligated to inform her of my past suicide attempts? Or would it be better for me to keep silent?
Why don't you rehearse by yourself with the pistol or another copy? This should give you plenty of time to adapt to the situation. If you think you can't manage, go see a psychotherapist, your director can't replace one.
I don't own a pistol, and the stage manager keeps ours under lock and key. He'll only release it once we start dress rehearsals. Theoretically, I could try to explain my situation to him, but he's a very literal fellow, and extremely safety-conscious. The fallout would be even worse than if I approached the director.
I suppose I could try rehearsing with my shotgun -- the muscle movements are different, though that shouldn't be too much of a problem -- but I'm honestly afraid to dig out the case. I haven't touched it since my last attempt. I don't even think I cleaned my saliva off the barrel.
hello OP just make sure there's no bullets in there. If the gun is not loaded you will get over your fear while being pushed in front of public. I dont think you would just walk away from the stage if you cant put the gun to your mouth or anything. But just make sure its not loaded and face them, the fears, you can do it! :)
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Go rent somewhere a fake gun, or even buy a toy one.
Play russian roulette with a loaded 45.
Use a toy gun instead
Just tell your psycho-doc about it, you don't know how anyone from work would react.
Let's expose corporate crime in English!
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3 名前：名無しさん＠英語勉強中[] 投稿日：2012/03/08(木) 15:34:59.66
"Watami Co., Ltd.," formerly called as "Watami Food Service Co., Ltd.," killed a young Japanese lady by violation of Labor Standards Act.
(ワタミ株式会社、かつてワタミフードサービス株式会社と呼ばれていた会社は、労働基準法違反で若い日本人女性を一人殺害しました。)
Ms. Mina MORI, who belonged to Watami, killed herself at the age of 26 in 2008, due to mental instability by excessive and illegal hard work.
The bereaved family claimed workers' compensation around four years ago. As a result, the examiner of Workers' Accident Compensation
Insurance officialy affirmed the petition, and the determination letter dated on Feb.14, 2012 says; "She could not afford holidays at all
because her overtime work is more than approx. 140 hours per month. We suppose that the main cause of her suicide would overtax by
excessive hard work."
A store manager and a careworker, both of who belonged to Watami, witness similar hard work and depose with evidences that Watami
violate the Labor Standards Act, especially constantly unpaid overtime work. If any of them were true, Watami commit organized crime.
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ワタミ社員の過労自殺を認定 入社２カ月の２６歳女性
http://www.47news.jp/CN/201202/CN2012022101001979.html
まるで現代版『ああ野麦峠』和民元店長が経験した修羅場 - 雑誌記事：@niftyニュース
http://news.nifty.com/cs/magazine/detail/asahi-20120229-01/1.htm
ワタミ反省の色なし！？ 自殺した女性の勤務内容について一切回答せず ／ 「遺憾」とした文書を削除 2012/02/25(土) 12:46:58 [サーチナ]
http://news.searchina.ne.jp/disp.cgi?y=2012&d=0225&f=national_0225_093.shtml
ブラックなのは居酒屋だけじゃない！ 「ワタミの介護」元職員が労災申請拒否を告発 - 日刊サイゾー
http://www.cyzo.com/2012/02/post_10000.html