I've been a shy recluse ever since the middle of high school when I stopped hanging out with certain unsavoury types of people from the working class area I lived in. Doing this meant that while I still wasn't accepted by the upper and middle class kids, I was looked down on as a friendless "nerd" by my working class peers. My indifference towards other people soon turned into bitter misanthropy and I lived out my days in my bedroom, the only place I could escape from the outside world, at least until my father started drinking and acted out his usual physically and verbally abusive routine. After leaving high school with below average grades, I was NEET for a year and only managed to hold the job that I finally got at the end of that for a month since it involved working with this same father who would repeatedly heap abuse on me for not working hard enough or not living up to his expectations.
Two months ago (technically more than two months since I hadn't really went to any scheduled classes) I dropped out of college for the second time, due to a complete lack of effort on my part, mostly out of disinterest in being told exactly what I should and shouldn't be studying. I loved the general field that the course covered, but didn't really have the patience for the repetitive method of teaching. And so now I'm left at what seems to be yet another dead end in my life.
But this time, I'm determined to change myself and adapt to my surroundings. I genuinely want to become a better person and make something of my dismal life. And I'm taking that first tiny step right now by going to bed before midnight. Sleeping has always been a problem for me. For the past few months, I've been staying up until early morning (6am at the earliest) and waking up in the middle of the day, just like I did after leaving high school, just like I did after dropping out for the first time. Those times, I just gave up and lounged around for months on end while being completely apathetic about my own life. But that changes tonight. I'm going to sleep before midnight, get up at 8am tomorrow morning, work out and go running for the first time in two years, take a shower, get my hair cut and then apply for jobs in every store I pass. I'll keep this up until I have enough money to make something of myself. I'll even take two jobs to get where I need and want to be.
I plan to run my own business someday and I'm going to have to work hard to get the money to pull that off. I was just going to keep some private notes of my progress, but I've had crazy ideas like this before, some admittedly verging on delusions of grandeur, and I always give up on them a few hours later and go back to watching anime or playing whatever visual novel I'm interested in at the time. But by writing this here, I feel like I'm promising someone else and this will encourage me somewhat. I plan to keep you guys updated on what will hopefully be a misanthropic hikikomori rags to moderately self-sustainable riches story.
Anyway, it's midnight now. Goodnight, 4-ch.
Good luck.
Fight on anon!
The plan was successful. Mostly anyway. My plan to go running sort of failed because of the bad weather, so I just worked out for a while at home.
I have a job application form for a local supermarket next to me right now and the place is desperate for workers, so I might actually be in with a chance here. I also got my horrible greasy long NEET hair cut. Short back and sides.
Oh, and I had muesli for breakfast this morning.（ ´∀｀）
Good luck =)
If I could hug you in real life, I would.
We'll be here in thick and thin :D
Good luck getting the job, you probably look spiffier without the long hair now so that's good for an interview if you get one.
go for it op!!! you can do it, i wish you luck, if by any chance your resolve shakes, don't forget that we're here to help you...
you can do it anon!!
hugs
Well, I handed in my job application form to the local store today. The manager lady looked it over and seemed to have some sort of weird disapproving look on her face. I don't know if she was judging me based on my having been NEET a few times in my life or the fact that I had dropped out of college. But there's a chance that I'm just looking into things too much. I tend to do that sometimes. It's going to be really hard to get into employment again if people are going to judge me based on the fact that I'm unemployed.
But this hasn't discouraged me at all. Even if they do turn me down, I'll keep on looking for something. For the first time in my life, I'm determined to make something of myself and a single setback isn't going to make me lose momentum.
Oh and thanks for the encouragement, guys.ヽ(´ー｀)人(´ー｀)ノ
Don't look into it too deeply. I wouldn't expect them to worry about past job experiences (although it does help) as long as you aren't applying for some kind of career like in a company. And by career, I'm talking 50+k/year jobs, not grocery clerk jobs.
Hello 1, has anything happened since you applied for the job? Did you get it?
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I'm still here. I didn't get any reply from that one, but I'm going to apply for a job that basically involves picking up garbage around a mall all day for minimum wage. I know a guy who works there already and he's going to help me out.
I'll get there eventually.
I envy you OP. You are doing something that I seem to can't do for some reason. I admit, I don't have a job and to be honest I don't seem to be trying to apply for a job around here. Maybe I don't want to work at all but I do want to really because I want to get paid and do things I want to do with money. Money isn't a thing for me and job is a job that everyone does to earn money in their lives. I envy you because what you do is what you do. You try things in your own life and it's kool because you seem to try harder and harder.
OP, don't give up. Not yourself and not on your life. Never. I'm rooting for ya.
God damn it, I still can't find a job. ;_;
What's the Royal Navy like these days?
Well if you do join a military force it will at least get you more physically fit!
Don't be too down OP, it's harder to find jobs nowadays.
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and is it because of the economy going bad? Or is it that these assholes won't hire people who in desire need of a job?
>>19
Don't infect OP with your negativity please.
I was obviously referring to the recession, and that times are tough for everyone.
I'm sorry for my negative ways on my last post.
We all have it hard on ourselves in life but I'll tell you this OP, you are doing things better than I am.
OP where are you??
Wanting updates!
OP here again. I avoided posting here out of embarrassment at my own failure. I still haven't been able to find a job and for the past couple of weeks I haven't even tried to. It all seems so futile.
"Normal" people don't want people like me to work for them. If only I had enough money to start with, I know I could turn it into more. But I don't. And I can't even get an unskilled job. I still have my aspirations, but my optimism is no more.
I'm sorry to hear it, OP; I really am, since I may too have to cut my hair pretty soon. What about volunteer work? If you're out working even if it's not for money, you'll be out there getting yourself known, maybe you'll be able to meet potential employers that way.
I know film production industry tends to work like this. Start off volunteering as a PA/spare hand for an indie/student project, make connections, and whatever production professionals are there may notice you and actually hire you for a subsequent project.
I only mention production work because that's the scope of my similarly limited experience when it comes to working.
Such a nice thread. I am now in dilemma to be chef of comic artist now....
Yet I still in hikki mode ...