I don't know if you are trying to be perfect but you shouldn't try to be perfect because really, no one is. If you meeting your parents expectations than that's something to put into pressure in part of things that you already have been pressuring in your life.

What you should do is do the things you want to do. Do your own thing and don't worry about anything else besides the thing you are focusing on doing. I can't put it into simple explanation but what I'm trying to say is that you should know that you tried your best and work hard on something. That's the good part because you are a hard worker and you try the best that you can to get it accomplished. Don't say that it sucks but look it in a way that this is what I have done and you should be proud of it.

Everyone makes mistakes or whatever and we all should learn from out mistakes, move on, and hope to fall into the same mistake ever again.

I'm trying hard in my life to GET my life going. I envy you OP because you got it going on and I don't. All I do is stay at home and without any ambitions or goals I don't have them in my mind but now I'm building it up in my mind on what I should do in my life or whatever that I should try things out and see what's best for me and what's the thing that I want to do or have the most.