I've got interested in your topic, and I got to mention that your shrinck is NOT a moron or an asshole [even if she really tries to].
Ms. OP, you need to keep track of your own feelings, it's will be very helpful for yourself when you can identify the triggers for your reversed feelings, which may be very specific.
Please, keep in touch. We are here for you, to try to help you.
Very good observation about the 'easier' emotions.