Go to the library get survivial books for living in the wild such as what plants to eat how to catch game and how to build a place to live out of natural materials study them memorize them and try them out then get on a bus to your nearest wilderness and live out the rest of your days in beatiful uncorruptible nature away from people and all their shit never to be made fun of or be pressured to be anything or do anything other than live. There are always alternitives op it would be sad to waste your current ability to exist because you are depressed. Living in society is hard but leaving society doesn't have to mean suicide.