yeah i know the titles been used to death but bear with me.
ok so my roomate is a spoiled rich kid who has no values and constantly hits his parents up for money instead of trying to find a job. Also, he's been saying to everyone how he is going to be this huge actor/screenwriter and how he's going to be the biggest thing in the whole world. Meanwhile i have been working since high school to be a decent writer (i've written 2 books of short stories and 1 full length mystery novel, not that it matters) I have tried finding jobs near me but there are so many people in my town but there are only a small number of jobs available here. So while i can't find a job I have been keeping my stomach full by fixing electronics and doing odd jobs like changing oil in peoples cars, painting houses etc. So while i've been working myself to the bone trying to pull myself up out of poverty he is constantly begging his parents for spending cash so he can buy $200 cardigans and $100 pairs of shoes that he only wears once. I didn't really care about him being spoiled until recently though, I was always taught that people like him never go far in life. But I found out a few days ago that he had entered a contest held by MTV wherein you pitch them a one episode pilot for a sitcom, they then choose a certain number of people to then go to new york to pitch the pilot to some MTV executives. No big deal, i'll let him have his contest maybe once he loses he'll finally come off his damn cloud and become a man. Well it turns out he has been chosen to go to new york. Fuck me. I mean i always knew life wasn't fair but this is fucking rediculous. My other friends say i should be happy for him but i just can't feel anything but rage when i think about him even having a chance at becoming anything other than a high school drama teacher. Its gotten so bad that I can't even read words in books anymore, whenever I read a line of dialog i hear it in his stupid condescending voice and it pisses me off to no end. I feel completely done like i just want to lie in bed and never get up again, because theres no point in going on in a world where people like him get ahead while hard working people like me, and the thousands more deserving than me, are tossed aside. I've completely ceased all my writing because every idea i get the voice in the back of my head just tells me that it doesn't matter how good it is and that i'm just fooling myself. I don't know why i'm writing this, I guess its better to vent to anonymous people on the internet than to keep it inside. Oh and i would hit him (not that it would solve anything) but i'm afraid that his rich ass parents will hire a huge lawyer and send me away for life so thats out of the question.