I didn't wish or bring it upon myself. For fuck's sake, I'm virgin.

Why is my family the very first ones to turn their back on me when I ask for their support? I've been with them whenever they needed me. I abandoned my passion and got into whatever they assigned me.

Stop telling me to talk to my family or loved ones. As soon as they found out, I've become an outcast, an embarrassment to them, a stain in the family's medical history. They now have to answer yes when doctors ask about family history only because of me. It's my fault. They want to get rid of me asap, and make it as if I've never existed in the first place.

Maybe I got the definition of family wrong. I hope so. Otherwise, why? I'm not dirty. I haven't done anything. It just happened. I didn't wish for it. Nobody would wish for it. So, why is it my fault?

I'm so pathetic that all I can do is post on some text board on the net. Now that I have it, I can't wait for stage 4. I can deal with it but not the people who blame it on me, the people who are supposedly my loved ones.