Sleep time (4)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2010-04-21 11:05 ID:tffeL354

Hello. I am a 19 year old person who sleeps at least 16 hours every day, on weekends more. Here's how it all started.

I used to be the no-friends person, never competed at anything, never been good at anything, except perhaps at staying silent and observing people. I had a friend up to my 16th birthday, then he left for studies and I couldn't find a replacement for my friend. I felt lonely and stopped school, started working at a local shop and didn't care for anything anymore, felt deranged.

A year after, my father died from cancer. I didn't care, but things got worse for me ever since. I did not spend time outside, I shut every source of natural light in my room, I had an accident before quitting my job that made me blind from my left eye (not just blind - I can't even move the eyeball, blood clot in head). Now I sleep. I wake up to go to the toilet and eat some, I usually stay in bed until I fall asleep again. I can't stop it. My mother bought some uppers for me but I don't want to take drugs. I like dreaming so much...

2 Name: Anonymous : 2010-04-23 03:58 ID:mtmI8AZm


You must start a caffeine addiction, my friend.

3 Name: Anonymous : 2010-05-15 19:36 ID:8h7pez5I

not helping unless I drink a lot of coffee which makes me nauseous

4 Name: Anonymous : 2010-05-15 21:10 ID:wQi159lh

I used to sleep a lot too because I was different. I used to call my bed "toxic." And it was almost like a drug to me. I slept because I was different. I hated the world because the world wouldn't except who I am. It was the same time I found out I was a men who is attracted to other men. I cursed my fate. I cried at night knowing that I could never love another person the way others do. I wanted to die. And I wanted the world to die with me.

But then one night, I had a dream. When I woke up. It was all better. I accepted my fate. I accepted the pain. I made a pact with it. That is if I can't find love then I will give someone all the love in the world.

I got out of my bed. I started to work out. I started to go to school. I started to better myself. And then soon enough, I had found her. I found her crying in the rain that day. I helped her home. I bought her food. And since then I had been showing her all the love there is in this world. And ever since then she hasn't cried again.

Even though I will never find this love myself. I will defy it.

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